So I feel much better now. I have been working for four ish hours and have done loads. Got my email down and have done two documents that need doing and should have been done on Friday. Both have now gone off to my manger for review! On the one hand I feel much better and will sleep better for having done this. On the other I will not get paid so it is not fair really, but could not go on worrying about it all.
Still trying to think why I never get my work done when I am at work. I do only work part time but do maybe have a slightly reduced workload but not by much. I also think that we have constantly changing requirements. I work in a very fluid environment and we have to pull things together very quickly at times and react to things as they are happening. As the leader of the team, I am often involved in organising things so get pulled all over the place, I also need to be very organised for the days I am not there. Not sure I can do much about that. The other thing is that I babysit the team, help them get organised, or organise things for them, this takes my time lots. I can do something about this, I can ensure they know what I want them to do and when it needs to be done etc and stop doing this. Okay we run the risk of failure because something does not get done which might make the team look bad, but I am sure it would only happen once and next time they would make sure it did not happen rather than me. I feel this should be my main goal for the next few weeks and see if it helps. I hope it does or I need to invent more hours in the day!
Off to bed for a nice sleep now. 
